the one with acknowledgement

talking to stace last night made an impact...well...one phrase did anyways.
"the first step is acknowledgement"
yes it is...it stuck with me through the night and this morning...it hit me.
i know for sure what it is i am feeling already.
for as long as i can remember, i finally know how it is to hate someone.
not just a certain dislike or being uncomfortable with someone.
hate...as in selfish, one-sided hate.
the type you wished the other person didn't exist in the first place.
a friend once said that we probably shouldn't write down such negative things because it kinda makes it real, permanent.
but what if i don't want it to be just a thought in my head?
i know hate will pass with time, but for now...let me relish in this feeling.