Woke up today and checked FB as usual and saw a friend's post regarding his dad's passing.
I am really sorry to find out about it and it has gotten me thinking a little bit about stuff.
We are all so fragile on this world. You never know when your time has finally run out.
Why aren't we letting ourselves be happy and without pointless conflict and burden?
A lot of them are self inflicted, aren't they?
I want to be free of these problems as much as possible.
But how to do it....
Today is just one of those days.
Woke up feeling down.
Not that I had a bad sleep...just didn't feel great when I awoke.
Checked my potential class for tomorrow only to find it cancelled for some unknown reason.
There was a student enrolled in it yesterday.
Felt shafted again.
ANGRY but nothing I can do about it.
Still waiting for a reply with the job application at another institution.
Today was a day when I was angry...ANGRY!
People around me was none-the-wiser of course.
I was so angry!
Angry at people who didn't have any concern over how their actions might hurt or damage me...or that it was done with so little care....the level of nonchalance was INFURIATING!
Mixed in with a dab of insecurity of what is to happen over the next few months, a touch of physical soreness that I experience everyday and finally a horrible expensive lunch sent me almost over the top.
I was exploding inside.
I wanted something bad to happen to this unnamed person.
Let him feel some fear and pain.
The power he has over people's lives must probably make him superior.
I know it is wrong to wish bad things upon others but I cannot stop how I feel this time.
This is the 2nd time I was shafted in 2 years....by the same organisation and person!
Well. It has been a while since I wrote anything. Seems not so long ago though. It's almost march and the new year felt like it was only a days back. So here I am now again at the food court in MacArthurs.
I want to say that is has been an exciting year to date but it really hasn't. CQU's summer semester ended like a flash. Working at the accommodations office also felt like a dream. So quickly over like a dream anyways.
This coming week marks the first week of the first semester for 2012 in the universities. I am back to teaching the database and programming classes again at CQU. Might be exciting and different because we will have domestic students joining us now. We will see.
Also got a part time gig working for the ISS in QUT to make changes to their systems. New territory but should be fun...hopefully.