Tarot Fantastico



You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

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My Angel by Tank

A song that reflects how I feel right now.

Hope you enjoy.
It has english subs...hahaha


作詞:施人誠 / 作曲:Tank / 編曲:呂紹淳

我不會怪妳 對我的偽裝
天使在人間 是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽 而妳纖細善良
怎能讓妳 為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌 厚厚的溫暖
妳總能平復 我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想 透過妳的眼光
我才看見 它原來在前方

妳是我的 專屬天使

擁有一個 專屬天使
我哪裡還需要 別的願望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也會 像妳一樣飛翔
妳想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保護 笑容儘管燦爛

要不是妳出現 我一定還在沉睡
絕望的以為 生命只有黑夜


Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (Tank)

Wo bu hui guai ni,
dui wo de wei zhuang,
tian shi zai ren jian shi gai cang hao chi bang
Ren men yu chun lu mang,
er ni xian xi shan liang,
zen neng rang ni,
wei le wo bei peng shang

Xiao xiao de shou zhang,
hou hou de wen nuan,
ni zong neng ping fu wo bu an de ye wan
Bu gan xiang de meng xiang,
tou guo ni de yan guang,
wo cai kan jian,
ta yuan lai zai qian fang

Mei you shui neng ba ni qiang li wo shen pang,
ni shi wo de zhuan shu tian shi,
wei wo neng du zhan
Mei you shui neng qu dai ni zai wo xin shang,
wo you yi ge zhuan shu tian shi,
wo na li hai xu yao bie de yuan wang

Xiao xiao de shou zhang,
da da de li liang,
wo yi ding ye hui xiang ni yi yang fei xiang
Ni xiang qu de di fang,
jiu shi wo de fang xiang,
you wo bao hu,
xiao rong jin guan can lan


Yao bu shi ni chu xian,
wo yi ding hai zai chen shui,
jue wang de yi wei,
sheng ming zhi you hei ye



Got this link from Lex's blog. Interesting. Have a go!


You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.


Haha...I wonder indeed
Interestingly...I realised I might have misplaced an order of a colour and got this instead:


You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

The way things are at this time is causing you considerable stress and anxiety. Your friends and acquaintances consider you to be - to say the least - difficult and unapproachable. Now it is because of this that you need to find some sort of solution. By doing nothing and waiting for matters to right themselves will only make things worse, but don't rush into making hasty decisions - make haste slowly.

You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.


I wonder which is closer

Weird is in the eyes of the beholder

So finally...after taking a break from the blogging world (not including the previous 2 posts), I am back with nonsense all over. This was thanks to Nadia who 'tagged' me apparently and I have to do as the 'rules' state as follows:

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1. I love instant noodles semi cold. I'll cook them for about 10 mins (instead of the normal 3), pour the soup base and the noodles into a bowl and let the noodles soak up all the soup until they turn all fat. Then I'll let it sit there until it turns a little less hot. Best taste in the world.

2. I talk to myself. Of course, this is often associated with mad scientists and lunatics but hey...it helps me reason out stuff and ward of the loneliness. It lets me believe I am talking to someone. I laugh out loud at the screen when I see something funny even when I am alone and act as if there is another person with me watching it. (This applies only when I am alone of course)

3. I love to cuddle under my blanket with the airconditioning blasting. Its COOL! Having the aircon blasting and then snuggling under the sheets...mmm...best feeling in the world. Naturally...if there was someone snuggling with me...that'll be even better...DUH

4. I daydream alot. And its not just day dreaming about what life might be or what I can do later. But more crazy fantasy/sci-fi stuff that will never happen. Its like a computer game in my head. Or a fantasy movie where anything is possible. Sometimes I am the lead...and others...I am just an observer. (Perhaps I need to write some of these dreams down on paper...haha)

5. I am an enigma when it comes to being alone. I love being alone...the feeling of not being judged or not having to conform to rules is a great thing. I can do almost whatever I want whenever I want. But here comes the weird part...almost at the same time...I wish there was someone here with me all the time. I hate being alone. I grew up isolated from people (perhaps the lack of the feeling of being loved...note: FEELING, not that I wasnt) and all I want is to be loved. So 2 parallels that arent supposed to ever meet but existing at the same time and dimension when it comes to me.

6. I am a girl. ROFL!!! Before you all start going "WAT?!?!?!" Read on. I sometimes feel like it makes more sense if I was born a girl. Dont get me wrong...I am a guy...it works for me...and I like it...sometimes...most of the time. HAHAHA. But I feel that I am too moody and too sensitive about things to be a guy. It takes a lot out of me not to freak out when bad things happen and scream and get all overly excited when good things happen. I love to be pampered (is this normal for everyone? HAHAHA). I like nice clothes (well...whatever fits me works as well) and soft fabrics. Perhaps I am metro to a level? ROFL

Had trouble coming up with number 6 but it got there in the end.
So am I weird? Do tell.

Anyways...the six people to be tagged next are:
1. Gavin
2. Dorothy
3. Anthony
4. Amy
5. Shelly
6. aB Lexandria
(I am assuming you dont tag the people from the list of the person who tagged you)

Easy peasy!

Researching some truths

Well...I did a little investigating myself this morning about my dad's possible form of dialysis. It basically requires him to perform self-dialysis using a solution of glucose and some other things which I cannot recall right now.

It takes 15 mins to drain out the waste liquid and 15 mins to replace the fluid.
Including removing of tubes and switching the clamps etc etc....Maybe 1 hr per session?
So that isnt that bad...but this is what I could gather.
I might be wrong.

Will know once my mom asks the doc.


So here I am at last....again

And so here I am at last....again.
In front of my laptop supposed to be getting ready for bed.
But too many thoughts flood my head...I dont think I can sleep unless I get this out.

* I know I have been tagged by Nadia, but I'll write that another day *

So what's bugging me?
Not saying all doctors are idiots or inconsiderate bastards...but the ones in charge of my dad in hospital almost seem to all be that way.

Firstly...when I was still back in SG, they let him back to the general ward without constant monitoring although he JUST came out of the ICU from multiple systems failure. They then had to being him back to the ICU after his condition worsened a little.

Next...not explaining properly to my mom what is at stake with the dialysis that my dad has to undergo. Making it sound so...easy and "normal".


Its HIS life ok! Of course they can be all non-chalant about it and just say..."its no problem one...our kidneys work all the time as well right?" My dad needs dialysis and haemodialysis is out of the question because his heart is weak and an artery collapsed completely. There is too much risk for him. So the option is the other one involving saline. But here's where the nonsense starts. There are 2 types but the one recommended is the DIY one. My dad will need to have dialysis 4 times a day by himself. According to a previous doctor...each time will take about 4 hrs.
Lets do the maths.
4x4hrs = 16hrs a day

That means he wont be able to go out. The doctors said that there is no problem...he can take the bag of saline out with him...WAT?!?!?
I want to go back and scream at them lor.
So easy to say...let them do it then! $%^#$%&$*#*

OK! Enough about that today.


My mind is still messed up I think...too many thoughts...and lost in daydreams way too often.
I need to get my head back to reality and face up to real life.
Things are shite.
But it'll be great if only there was someone to share my troubles with me...


My body aint in good shape too.
There are too many time I feel that it is giving up on me already.
All the abuse I put it through...its finally fighting back and giving me hell.
Maybe it is dying and there is nothing I can do?
Gonna see a doctor about a full body check soon.


Everyone in my family is sick...3 people has been to the hospital already.
What is going on???